Falling in Love....

*So freaking sian...argh!!injured my ankle again...damn cuiz..both my ankles cmi already lar....haiz..luckily this time is not very serious...but know its a rather bad sprain still tho...then went to see sinseh..omg..freaking lots of people...then the sinseh was like..'u very familar oh, ur ankle hao liao har' i was like..erm ya...today is the other ankle..haha..then he crap thru the whole session..not very long lar...but then he was like just relax and senseless chat..then he ended off with like ' yi hou bu yao da qiu le (dont play in future)' i was like stunned? cause he was chitchatting before that then the tone was like relax..suddenly say this in the same tone as previous sentence..i was like..'does he really mean it?' or wat?..Haha...like..'he serious not? my ankle so jialat meh (cause i injure it once before...) wah lau...also my bad lar..din clarify with him..haah...*faint*

Anyway...fell in love with bachata and a song..think called 'ventu'..cause i m learning bachata..and this song keeps playing n playing..and quite like the song..and everytime when i hear this song..then will trigger the bachata stuff lar...which i like..but...its so hard to learn then salsa....omg...and now with my injure ankle..i have to skip my dance lessons again..haiz...like 'dou xue bu hao le still cant make it for the lesson'....

But here are two clips that show hows bachata looks like...it supposed to be a sensual dance lar..but then the two here not very sensual tho..i find the first one too exaggerated the movement..the hip like can hip until chest level like that..and the second..decent tho ..but want i wanted to emphasize is the background music which i mentioned just now... =)enjoy

好想回到最初。。。

What a turbulent week!! Thinks its abit 夸张la but then..haiz...i think grumpy would be a more appropriate word i guess...

Hasnt been playing bball for weeks, kind of like dying to play soon..if not 全身like very lethagic that kind..But i guess its not just bball bah..sch work especially readings and project are haunting me subconsciously...Especially the marketing project..wenesday presentation and now i haven see the essay!! so shitty lar...haiz...and cause its assigned by the tutor...i more dulan!...here's my reasoning i guess : if we were to choose ourselves, i would not choose some of my current group members based on first impression which basically are the feel and appearance of them i guess....and now..i kanna this sucky group...the dissonance i m facing its even bigger!..think self fulfilling prophecy will be next...think my presentation on wednesday is gonna be cuiz...i think will turn out cuiz lor..haiz..

next is the readings...now i have a specific phoba - bibliophobia... i see the textbook i feel nausa sia...especially developmental and abnormal psy...i read two pages..totally give up....haiz...kind of implicitly deter it....

and my research paper..totally no idea how m i gonna start it...and keep procrastinating....shit..

But all on the brighter side...exercise seems to help tho..but i m really lazy to engage in it...

trying to ask my friends to make a jersey together ..abit cok lar but then...i dont koe...wanna 圆梦 actually wanna win a competition with my friends now still relatively young lar...still can run..if not uncle liao...how to??actually was kind doing the things i like and wanna do..cause scared next time work le..no time!

Actually this blog is becoming a vector to voice out all my depressive tots sia...sian..nv go out..become 宅男 already....

kiss goodbye...(to my mid term break of course!)

I dont knoe why...the mid term break seems to pass slower than i expected...maybe..too much time to slack thats y time passes even more slowly...first four days were fast..cause was doing my assignments..but then..from friday onwards jiu...do what i do best lor...

Wanting to sing k ..but in the end..no vacancy..so..haiz...then tot of playing bball in the morning but friends say wanna study for mid term..so..din play...in the evening went down to play..hoping to find some pp to play with..but then all kids with slippers..buay tahan..i hate people wearing slippers to play bballl...like...i dont koe..not prepared or not serious in playing like that...

so sick of reading my abnormal...so freaking thick...read one chapter...forget the previous one that i read before...retrograde interference lor.....like that mid term cham liao lor....so many stuff to remember...

losing steam for my keyboard lessons...haiz..feeling lazy to find new songs and figure out how to play...then. in class..not learning new songs liao.....as for my dance...tho its fun..but it is stressing me out too...so many moves to remember...wah lau...like just into 15min of the lessons..i m sweating like siao due to stress man....

sat went for volunteering...was pretty good i guess..new elderly and kind of new grouping..so get to koe new people as well...then dinner went to dine at saiyerzia - spelling is incorrect but along that line... its a italian restuarant (kind of)at liang court...price is reasonable...BUT..its not nice at all..well its edible lar..just that..the name of dish and the photos werent tally with the actual thing it served...my slices of smoked salmon (shown in the menu) turns out to be bits of salmon...too puny to even taste its salmon or like any other mushroom bits or watever...so i dont recommend to go there and it...


okie..got to get my gearbox and start doing all my work for the next half of the sem!!

A year OLDer...

Finally a breather....Two weeks ago was horrrrrrendous!! practically..wake up go sch..then at night go for dance/ keyboard / run / activities...reach home ard 11...bath sleep...next day routine the same...

Last week was pretty much better...tho 'procrastinated' assignments are still waiting for me...

22 years of age already...graduating in two more years?..working??...omg...cant imagine myself doin that...Had a birthday celebration with my JC pals on friday...most of the girls have graduated and working or like waiting to start work and some still enjoying life...TIME FLIES...

Occassionally i would also think about what i'm gonna do in future....gosh...I m realli very 'nua'...hope to do smth that is related to psychology but then...needs Master degree...no money now, grades average, when u think of it...totally sian diaoz....But anyway see the results for this sem first!

Studies and grumbles aside....Enjoyed my dance last saturday.. at least better thatn the first lesson which i totally stressed out...haha acute stress disorder for the past week liao...at least the instructor pinpointed less of my mistakes..dont feel so discouraged...Keyboard was fine too i guess...tho still quite mediocre....

Went out with my bball clique in the afternoon for a birthday lunch...quite stardard lar..like if our birthdays are coming we would go out and eat....tho i see them like practically every sunday for bball but then...feel realli good to hang out with them...

Practically..thats nothing much exciting to talk about i guess...Haha...everything's kind of routine to me.....- thanks for all the well wishes!-

3 weeks...

Shag....

Been sleeping late and waking up relatively early for the past few weeks...Haiz..now not giving tution...tot i have more time to hit the books..but in the end!!!I m out and playing games more than i study!!jialat....

Okie..A reading a day..well..still kind of struggling lar...hope to maintain..but every reading..i just briefly read thru...din really like seriously 的去 pay much attention or remember that kind..haha...ya..really briefly read thru...then today read thru...after a few days..forget what i read le...haiz..my memory storage is really cuiz...

Speaking of that...today had my keyboard lesson..omg..spent like 45min just playing 2 bars and i still cant coordinate or get the tempo right....the more that i played (on the spot) the more errors i made...haha..easily stressed....first time everything is fine but when my instructor asked me to loop the same bars again..wah...totally cannot liao...haha...fingerings and coordination goes hay wire again...

3 weeks of school has passed tho...well...seems that tho i m not tied down to my tution anymore...i m like engagin in like lots of activities...like...time isnt sufficient like that lar.. at times..runs n exercises, keyboard lessons twice a week now, salsa once a week and upcoming new dance bachata, fortnightly csc involvement, weekly basketball....wah....充实了许多but...口袋也破了满多也是。。now i m a 穷光蛋...really spent like lots of money this month..especially on food sia.. k die....now lect theatre right next to canteen..wah every break..'mai tu liao' go buy food to eat...then meet up with friends etc....woah...tho wat i m spending is wat i earned in the states but then..still feel the pinch lar...y??cause now no income lor...

Haiz..better seriously start studying or watever le...or at least do the right things at the right time..or simply...better time management..

New term

Ichiban Sushi for two consecutive days..omg..k really kill...both price and food i mean. the food is good..but i wished i have a different cusine today...

New term has started. When i look at my blog entries..gosh...its likenot updated..Well dont know why..everytime i tried to log in, there is some javascript error, and i couldnt blog at all. Not only that, when i go into facebook, same thing happens...Gosh..dont know whats happening to my com and my internet connection...Anyway, since now i hardly update it..maybe its high time to call it an end.......

Its been three weeks since i came back from the states. Things changed a litttle i guess. My appetite seems to be smaller now...in the past a packet of noodles and like a packet of fried carrot is no kick for me but now...cant do it anymore..More into exercising now, run more regularly altho not for very long each time...swims getting more and more since i m getting sick of going gym..haha i m too pure lazy also...Now not giving tution, have more time for myself and of course for the books i guess in near future..so i had a good relaxing weekend this week!..met up with friends for dinner, movies etc...But the downside would be no more income! have to rely on my mum for pocket money nxt mth lo...

Catch up with my keyboard lessons.Gosh..getting tougher and tougher but at least its steps closer to playing it well...Stopped my vball recrea and went to refresh my salsa instead. Omg..i realy forgot all the steps and stuff le...come to think of it time flies. Learnt in like a year ago and now..haha..back to the basics...totally forgotten it..Since now i have relatively more time on hand, was thinking of joining a cca without much commitment cause wanna TRY to concentrate more on my studies this time...so thats y i gave up tution..haha maybe go join volunteering work to earn some good karmas?

Watch the movie UP quite some time back with friend. i think its really enjoyable and worth it. Just finished the movie Management by Jennier Aniston. The movie was quite allright to me, meaningful but the movie's tempo was kind of slow so guess you have to bear with it. Its not a like romantic comedy but rather something more realistic yet and some point of time its like maybe it wont really happen in reality that kind....so kind of in between i guess...but i think the director did quite all right in that bah...

Haha...beside gg to sch, back home working out, practice keyboard and maybe study alittle...and dramas of course..haha.play bball on sundays morning..guess this is my routine lor...haiz...

Something's missing....

Been back to Singapore from the States for a week already. 终觉得少了点什么。The first day when i reached, it feels so different. 人不同了，环境也不同了。我的老家似乎也不同了。'Did something changed when i was gone?' 'Nope, nothing has changed.' Walked around my neighbourhood the second day. 还真得有点不习惯。Gone was the 'Good mornings' and 'How are you doing?' Instead was greeted by nonchalent faces. Malays, Indians, you hardly see them in the States, they all looked so different to me even till now. Ah lians, bengs seem to be a local identity now. Everything feel so weird.

在美国时，我很少，可说似乎没有想家。令我怀念的任是新加坡的美食。I am quite sick of bacon, eggs, and rosti(they called it hashbrown) for breakfast everyday. Moreover, salads and fruitless meals. 'Where's all my fried vegetables and fruits?' 撇开食物不谈， 令我很少想家的是在美国那结交的朋友，那温情的友谊。每天忙于工作，下班后打球，慢跑，和朋友聊天，时间飞逝。生活平凡，却很充实。I thought I could never survive without TV for 2 months or even telephone, but I did. Of course, internet must be accesible for me, if not i would turn into a caveman, literally.还记得我们抵达的第一天，冷得半死。When i got into an little argument with Jerry, a kind lady, Lane (who eventually gave us each a little printed painting of hers when we left)offered a helping hand. Susan, our next door neighbour, and her constant, same old complains of her never busy days, cracked jokes that filled the dining room. 阿 ‘侠’ 哥，蓝天，‘大姐大’的‘酸’来‘酸’去，BOSS: 'How long more Ken?',Glaizsa: 'Kenzok!', 'Kuapo': 'Zi Gei Guitar, Zi Gei Dongdong', Mike: 'Yoz, whats up man?' on and on...真的，回到这里，似乎少了这些温情。

As my job is soon up, new people came, from Taiwan, Russia, Turkey. A once rather quiet or say Filipino filled laundry room turned into a bustling place filled with Chinese, Turkish, which i often seeked to stay away.太吵了啦!终于要走时，farewell party was great. From housekeeping, to Kitchen , Front desk, everyone was there. Atmosphere was great.

All this was not possible if my friend, Eve did not ask me to join her. A good companion, who tolerated all my nonsenses, who often brought me supper, whom I waited every night for her (cause I worked morning shift, she worked in the aftn/night shift, so we hardly have a chance to chat) until i fell asleep, and the funny thing was, she wakes up earlier than me everyday!

做工，赚钱，旅游，花钱，感觉实在好。新的事物，新的环境，新的朋友，全新的体验。If I have a chance, I would return. Work in other places in the States? (Worry that things are different. People changed, job is tougher and so on..) Work at the same place? (I don't mind actually, just have to deal with being stucked there without much entertainment again for months.)好了，罗哩罗嗦够了，新的学期又要开始，嗨。。烦恼啊!